drifting

Today I pondered & I wondered. & I realized. It took so long for me to see it all; all that was in plain sight. Selfish I've been, haven't I? I neglected certain aspects while I over emphasized on others. It's not the matter of taking one for granted because we all express love differently. No, it's just that I over looked what you really needed. Wanted. Required. Now that you're gone, I guess it's time for me to leave too. What used to be our comfort zone is now empty. Soulless. Guess I'm the only one lingering there, hanging on aimlessly, shamelessly.

Sometimes I space out, & I dream about those moments we shared. Your smile, your touch, your love. & the vividness of these memories scare me. Sometimes I seek solace in my dreams where you still exist somehow. Reality crashes back. Everything goes back to naught. 2 short months, but it was perfect. The best 2 months I ever shared with any individual.

I see you having fun, moving on. That's great. It really is. Stay this way always. We only live once, don't regret a moment of it. Live it the way you want to. That's all I ask of you.

This is my last and final post for you. Be happy always.

Happy Birthday in advance, enjoy yourself and do take loads of care.

Goodnight love x